Caressed. Played with. Manipulated. It wouldn’t have mattered if it was all a lie as long as you didn’t know it was because you were an addict.
I learned to hide my pain in her, because all the negativity, all the horrible emotions I felt. I knew people couldn’t be trusted. I knew people did not want to see me, or my pain. So I used her. I buried it all in her. I locked it in. Which is why when she comes out to play, she does not care who she hurts, she only wants to win.
Because I want to hold you. I am afraid of you. Because I want to kiss you. I am afraid of you. Because I want to love you. I am afraid of you. Because I want to need you. I am afraid of you. I want to learn from you as you enter me. In [...]
Never fully evolving. We make the same mistakes. Over and over again. Because it’s all about... The thrills. The chills. The chase.The kill. We’ve killed it, now. Now leave me.